Hesitation destroys our lives.

Where do you want to go from here? What do you want to do? Have you ever asked yourself that question? Ever sat in from of the mirror and just thought, 'what the hell'. Some things just aren't worth thinking about, they aren't worth worrying about, stressing about, or letting consume your life. Just like some people don't deserve your time, or your energy. Most of our struggle in life comes from inside of us. It comes from the hesitation of putting ourselves out there, from the reluctance to let other people see what were  really about. We set restrictions and handicaps on ourselves simply because were to worried about how we will look, or what someone else will think. What we do will never be enough, not for everyone. So...we just have to decide who its going to be enough for. Will it be enough for our family? Our friends? Our spouse? Maybe our boss? Or will we be one of the few people who figures out how it will be enough for a couple of those? If were lucky maybe we can find the balance. Living life is just about figuring out how to survive in equilibrium. Its all about which battles we can afford to fight, and which battles we can afford to lose. If for one second we allow ourselves to think that we are in control, or that we have some type of say in what goes on is where we are wrong. Everyday I learn something new, who gives a shit, and who doesn't. And everyday, that list gets smaller and smaller. Our lives are what we believe that they are. We can create anything that we want in our minds....and with that, we can make any fantasy become a reality. So that's up to you, that's your decision. If you want your dreams, your fantasies, to be reality, then all you have to do is let them. Its as simple as that. And sometimes, when people stand in your way, you just have to say fuck you, and never forget their face. Because if someone doubts you once, they will doubt you twice. Always forgive, but never forget, because the minute that you allow yourself to forget, is the minute that you die. You just have to ask yourself, "do I want to live my life making other people happy? Or do I want to live my life making me happy?" We have no control over what other people say or do. During the civil war Stonewall Jackson told his men that in order to win the war they must raise the 'black' flag, meaning that they could show no mercy. He believed that in order for the south to emerge victorious they would have to fix bayonets, and spare no one. In more ways than one he was right. Sometimes in our lives we will come to situations where we will have to raise the black flag and fix bayonets, otherwise we will allow ourselves to be walked on, trampled on, taken advantage of, and slowly but surely we will watch as that destroys who we are. As it eats away at the very fiber of our being, and erodes the foundation of our soul. That decision to fix bayonets is never easy, and it isn't a matter of it being "us or them." Many times its the deciding factor in whether or not we want our livelihood to remain...Whether or not we want everything that we stand for to be preserved, valued, and honored. Our legacy is never what we leave behind, it isn't the pictures, the money, or the house. Our legacy is that burning hole left inside someone that causes them to do something great. Its the fight that we win, so that they know what its like to be victorious. Its the feeling they have of knowing that someone would do anything for them, the ever resounding noise that brings tears to their eyes. If we want to leave behind a legacy, one full of inspiration and of passion, then we must raise the black flag in our lives. We must show everyone else that we are willing to do what it takes to preserve who we are and that we will fight and never give up to prove that. And we do that by taking away that hesitation, we do that by allowing ourselves to be seen for who we are. Scars, wounds, and all. By raising that black flag we are saying that we aren't ashamed of who we are, and who we are going to be. That's what really matters...And that's what will ensure that we are preserved, that our legacy is remembered, and more importantly, valued.